3:08 AM

Even though I was exhausted in the early evening, I can't sleep. My nine-to-five takes up the two-hour window during the day when I can sometimes nap, so now I have to take caffeine pills in addition to all the coffee. They make me really shaky and disoriented. When I cut out the caffeine all together, I never feel quite awake and I still can't sleep. If you ask me, it's 2009; sleep should come in pill form by now. I'd still have a bed if it did.
Where do people form their life strategies? I figure it's probably something they construct along the way, but, if that's the case, I feel like I missed some crucial mass experience. Sure, not everyone approaches things in a uniform manner, but I feel so far off from the median response.
Speaking of alienation, I've found myself listening to a lot of the music I listened to all the time in high school. Pouring over the Unicorns and the Magnetic Fields seems expected at a time like this. I can't decide yet whether it feels like regression or coming full-circle.
It's strange to think that it only took nine days for me to forget how to love.