Saturday, July 4, 2009

6:33 PM

My dreams are always vivid, but lately they've been annoyingly morally pointed, as well. I already spend a good portion of my waking hours wracked by self-doubt; it seems excessive that my brain reenacts ten-minute clips of conversation while I sleep. It's like a bad film montage, complete with voice echoing for no reason.
I talked to my friend, Alex, for quite a while last night. He just broke things off with his girlfriend of a year, so we were commiserating, I suppose. He sent me some of Louis Wain's paintings. Wain started painting cartoon cats early in his career, but they became increasingly kaleidoscopic as he became more delusional.
They're sort of like Prohibition-era LOLcats, come to think of it, though perhaps Wain wasn't LOLing so much as he was stuck in an asylum.

I wonder if it's easier to deter boredom if you're schizophrenic.

2 comments:

  1. I worked very, very hard on a big project at my job one day. When I finally got home and into bed, I dreamed about working very, very hard on a big project at my job. I really disliked my brain for doing that to me for the rest of that week.

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  2. I have extremely vivid dreams. Sometimes they're excessively vived, and quite often lucid. Sometimes it seems as though I haven't slept. They're distressing at times - A lot aren't pleasent.

    They stopped for two months. I missed them.

    Your thought about Schizophrenia is interesting. - It's something I'll probably think about a lot more.

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